Holy Crap...I'm "kinda" Freaking OUT!

It has been awhile since I have posted anything on here...and I KNOW I said I was going to do better.  I'm pretty sure it's been over a month, sorry. 

We are having a baby in 6 days!  Yeah, 6.  That's what I'm saying.  It's kind of a scary thought for me, but I am so ready!  Our baby boy will be delivered (pending plans go thru) on January 1, 2011 and we are so excited!  It's only a few days earlier than the original plan, but feels like it shaved a week off.  There are so many unknowns in our situation still and this makes me feel uncomfortable, but I'm ready for the answers to my questions and I'm ready to meet him.  I want to see what he looks like.  I want to see what he is going to smell like.  I want to see how he is going to act.  I want to see what characteristics of mine and which of Justin's he is going to have.  It's just so overwhelmingly exciting it's difficult to really put into words. 

This has been a long time coming for us and we have had some hurdles along the way.  These have made some of this journey difficult but at the same time it has made it easier and made us ready for anything.  Many have continued to tell us how much our life is going to change being parents.  Well, I hate to say it, but our lives have already changed a lot from being parents and we are welcoming this change.  All the crying in the middle of the night, all the poop diapers where you think you're going to throw up, all the days of sore nipples where your breasts feel like they will fall off from feeding, all the sleepless nights, and we're going to enjoy them all!  It's odd for some people to understand this about us I think.  We are actually looking forward to these things and looking forward to the misery.  Because for us...this means we have our baby and we are doing our best job at taking care of him.  And we are well aware it will be a learning experience for all three of us :) 

As I write this I'm thinking about all the things I have to do in the next 4 days because we have to be "ready" when I go in for my amniocentesis (in case my body decides it's ready to have a baby), and there's really not a whole lot more to do.  We are physically prepared...now we'll see if we're ready!  Here goes parenting...