It has been awhile since I have posted anything on here...and I KNOW I said I was going to do better. I'm pretty sure it's been over a month, sorry.
We are having a baby in 6 days! Yeah, 6. That's what I'm saying. It's kind of a scary thought for me, but I am so ready! Our baby boy will be delivered (pending plans go thru) on January 1, 2011 and we are so excited! It's only a few days earlier than the original plan, but feels like it shaved a week off. There are so many unknowns in our situation still and this makes me feel uncomfortable, but I'm ready for the answers to my questions and I'm ready to meet him. I want to see what he looks like. I want to see what he is going to smell like. I want to see how he is going to act. I want to see what characteristics of mine and which of Justin's he is going to have. It's just so overwhelmingly exciting it's difficult to really put into words.
This has been a long time coming for us and we have had some hurdles along the way. These have made some of this journey difficult but at the same time it has made it easier and made us ready for anything. Many have continued to tell us how much our life is going to change being parents. Well, I hate to say it, but our lives have already changed a lot from being parents and we are welcoming this change. All the crying in the middle of the night, all the poop diapers where you think you're going to throw up, all the days of sore nipples where your breasts feel like they will fall off from feeding, all the sleepless nights, and we're going to enjoy them all! It's odd for some people to understand this about us I think. We are actually looking forward to these things and looking forward to the misery. Because for us...this means we have our baby and we are doing our best job at taking care of him. And we are well aware it will be a learning experience for all three of us :)
As I write this I'm thinking about all the things I have to do in the next 4 days because we have to be "ready" when I go in for my amniocentesis (in case my body decides it's ready to have a baby), and there's really not a whole lot more to do. We are physically prepared...now we'll see if we're ready! Here goes parenting...
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
We're in the 30's!
I am officially 30 weeks pregnant! One thing which was such a big deal for Justin and I. We have never been in this zone before, and it is exciting. Only 7 more weeks left to wait until Oliver is here.
We were talking about how it is really weird to think of because there are times where it feels like Oliver is our first, but he is clearly not. It will be a whole new concept to bring a baby home, and we are so excited and somewhat 'prepared' :)
Oliver is really starting to be more active as I get further along. Justin has been able to see him moving around in my belly just by looking at my stomach. This is kind of like Alien and being invaded...there are times where it does seem like he is going to try to pop out of my stomach. Anywho...we don't have too much further to wait...and yet it seems like forever. A little sneak peak to our little one...and from the outside as well..
We were talking about how it is really weird to think of because there are times where it feels like Oliver is our first, but he is clearly not. It will be a whole new concept to bring a baby home, and we are so excited and somewhat 'prepared' :)
Oliver is really starting to be more active as I get further along. Justin has been able to see him moving around in my belly just by looking at my stomach. This is kind of like Alien and being invaded...there are times where it does seem like he is going to try to pop out of my stomach. Anywho...we don't have too much further to wait...and yet it seems like forever. A little sneak peak to our little one...and from the outside as well..
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Thoughts on happiness
"Happiness is not a destination, but a mood"
I heard this quote on a show I was watching the other night and it really struck me. The person who said it gave an explanation afterward and to me it made complete sense. People always treat happiness as though it were a destination. As if when something particular happens in their life they will then be happy. I honestly used to think about happiness this way. When I graduate college, I'll be happy. When I meet the man I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with, that's happiness. When I'm able to be a mother, that's happiness. All of these things are happiness, but they are not the end. Right now, I used to think when I can work in the career I want to and have the family I have, I will be happy. Those things would make me happy, yes, but they should not be my destination. If you look at happiness as a mood...something which comes and goes...the outlook on things for me is completely different. The definition of happiness shows it is a feeling, not a goal:
"Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy." Some other states of mind or feelings in which we have in our daily life...hunger, fear, anger, sadness...all of these are temporary. I wanted to share this because it made me think of how I'm always pursuing happiness and not really enjoying it when it does come along. The only reason why I remember all of the other "feelings" is because they are mostly the opposite of happy. But we have to embrace all feelings...even the bad ones. So it's okay to feel sad and angry and scared...because most of those things will lead to at least a small moment you can experience happiness.
I've had a lot of things happen in my life where I wish they didn't...but now when I think about it...I'm not "happy" they happened, but I understand the feelings they gave me and how they have allowed me to recognize true happiness, and how it too is only temporary. Until the next does comes around.
I heard this quote on a show I was watching the other night and it really struck me. The person who said it gave an explanation afterward and to me it made complete sense. People always treat happiness as though it were a destination. As if when something particular happens in their life they will then be happy. I honestly used to think about happiness this way. When I graduate college, I'll be happy. When I meet the man I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with, that's happiness. When I'm able to be a mother, that's happiness. All of these things are happiness, but they are not the end. Right now, I used to think when I can work in the career I want to and have the family I have, I will be happy. Those things would make me happy, yes, but they should not be my destination. If you look at happiness as a mood...something which comes and goes...the outlook on things for me is completely different. The definition of happiness shows it is a feeling, not a goal:
"Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy." Some other states of mind or feelings in which we have in our daily life...hunger, fear, anger, sadness...all of these are temporary. I wanted to share this because it made me think of how I'm always pursuing happiness and not really enjoying it when it does come along. The only reason why I remember all of the other "feelings" is because they are mostly the opposite of happy. But we have to embrace all feelings...even the bad ones. So it's okay to feel sad and angry and scared...because most of those things will lead to at least a small moment you can experience happiness.
I've had a lot of things happen in my life where I wish they didn't...but now when I think about it...I'm not "happy" they happened, but I understand the feelings they gave me and how they have allowed me to recognize true happiness, and how it too is only temporary. Until the next does comes around.
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